What Mama Remembers
Average Rating: 
[2 Comments]
It's Sunday morning, and once again I'm experiencing the miracle of the Resurrection. The otherworldly aura surrounding my mother as she lifts her hands in praise and worship radiates from a world where there's no such thing as Alzheimer's. Where laughter, love, and hope are the language of the heart, portrayed not in spoken words but in the glow of eyes on fire with the sure knowledge of heaven.
It begins the minute I walk through my parents' front door each week to find her seated, as usual, dozing on the sofa. I startle her with my kiss.
"Oh! Hi, honey," she says. "What are you doing out on such a cold day?" (Unlike myself—more-than-warm-enough these days—she's usually chilly.)
"Hi, Mom. It's not cold out. It's a beautiful day. I came to get you ready for church." I hug her then, scratching her back, before settling into my roles as fashion designer, make-up artist, and hairdresser. It isn't long before she asks the question: "Donna, is my mom dead?"
I've heard the stories many times in my life, of soldiers, mortally wounded on the battlefield, crying out for Mama with their final breath. And I ask myself, What is it about the relationship between children and mothers that causes us to intuitively call for them in times of our most profound need? Though the physical connection to our moms is cut at birth, I believe the spiritual umbilical cord is never severed.
Nowhere has that truth been more evident to me than while standing helplessly in the wings, watching my mother struggle in the clutches of the dreaded "A" word.
The question began about a year ago. Although I answer over and over, to Mom it's a brand new inquiry every day, every hour, sometimes every five minutes.
Because of Jesus
When doctors first diagnosed Mom, I settled firmly into denial, out to prove the experts wrong. Not my mother, my best friend. Please God, no, I would silently cry out.
We'd gone "garage-saling" that day, as was our custom on many Saturday mornings. She saw the purse and just had to have it. "It'll be perfect for fall," she'd said.
Some women like shoes, some jewelry. Mom liked purses. When I was a little girl, I remember us kids digging through her many purses with her, trying to come up with enough loose change to buy a dollar's worth of gas so we could all go to the beach, or on a picnic, or for a ride in the country. We usually struck it rich.
That day, two hours and a few garage-sale bargains later, I dropped her off at home. "Don't forget your purse, Mom," I'd said as I loaded her with her goodies.
"My purse?"
"Yes. Here it is."
"Oh, that's not my purse. It must be yours."
I went home and cried.
That night I determined to make her a heritage scrapbook. So she'd always remember.
I spent the following months in intensive interviews—across the kitchen table, in the car, on the phone. She loved talking about the "old days," retelling family stories and childhood exploits. I experienced her first love, the joys and heartaches inevitable with rearing five children (I'm the oldest), and the agony of two divorces before she found her true knight in shining armor—my stepdad, Don.
Related Topics:
Afterlife, Alzheimers, Death, Hope
More from Donna Arlynn Frisinger:
Kyria.com | Books
Join the Kyria.com Community!
Become a member to have access to the following:
- Full access to the bimonthly Kyria digizine, each issue focusing on a spiritual discipline or theme
- 50 percent discount on all of the downloadable resources in the Kyria Store
- Hundreds of members-only articles for thoughtful, influential women
downloadable guides
Sabbath Rest in a World of Stress
Practical insights for how to live a life that honors the spirit of Sabbath-rest.
The Mentoring Series: Nancy Ortberg
Discover leadership principles from a well-known author and respected leader.Browse More Guides
back to top
Average User Rating:
Sue
My mom had "multi-infarct dementia"--multiple little strokes. Her memory was slowly drained, as well and we got used to the phrase "this isn't home--Mother isn't here". It does break your heart; but, thankfully, God is still in the heart-healing business. We were grateful Mom still was able to worship as yours does. Now she sings "Jesus Loves Me" with the angels.
Patricia Hullett(Registered User)
This touched my heart. I lost my mother 22 years ago when I was 36 and she was just 56. (Not of Alzheimers, she died from complications of surgery.) God bless both of you.
Rate & Comment on this article *